moody

i feel very sad these few days..i dunno why but i am just feeling depressed. i just felt pain in my heart and every part of my body is aching, including my heart.
ok for those who are going to say that i am just feeling out of love, this post will disappoint you.
i just feel severely depressed after the common tests..knowing that i will do badly for everything. maths was disastrous and even though physics was supposed to be easy and doeable, i still did badly! *sigh and the only thing i mug for, chemistry, oh well, not talking about it is the best thing to do. i hate it, i had put in so much effort to study chem and in the end, it ended up some bad....urghhh!!!! and i have a h3 chem test on friday too =( when will i ever escape from this mediocrity...
yeah..and i also need to help my friends get the RJ dance night ticket...*sigh it seem like an impossible task..seeing that almost all my friends their tickets are all sold out and well..just pray that one or two will come along in my way.
i dont know why..i just feel like leaving this place..to go somewhere to find my love, to go somewhere to explore and walk freely, freely from woes and to pursue my ideal..
i just feel that i am further and further away from my dream of being a doctor..in the sense that i think my grades are not going to let me study but i promise i will work hard..it is my goal to help the sick and try to do my best in relieving them of their illness and ensure that their health is my top most priority. but i am feeling stressed now..do you think i should take a break..?
to my dear.. i know you do not know about this blog and will never come here..but will you support me through even though you may be far away and i cannot see you?? will you give me your heart and take mine with you..so that our soul can be complete.
i just feel so empty in my heart, maybe i just need to find work to do, drown myself in tiredness
ok
bye bye