blogging

Haha.. it’s been a long time since I last blogged. Well common tests are just over like last week and I originally thought that h3 chem is this week but it got postponed..so well at least a bit of breathing space. I think I will get back math tmr..well..it was a miserable paper so hmm…
Chem. Will be either tomorrow or Friday whereas physics should be on Friday and GP is confirm next week…
I want to go watch harry potter luckily xinyi and hopefully andreas will agree to go watch with me haha…shall ask them tmr..
Not bad last weekend, went to weilin’s party..stupid me walk all the way from around the beginning of the entire changi coast lane or something into the resort..lasted me around 10 minutes..really hot but the chalet was fantastic, good food, good music, played poker, cut the cake then dance…well I actually didn’t dance cos xiu huan and I left early lol…cos I went pulau ubin in the morning and was dead tired..i woke up like at around 6 am and then went for a hike haha…with my parents and a family friend…so I needed sleep that night and decided not to stay over..
Hey there is a german girl’s shrine at pulau ubin, it is quite far away and require some walking..but it was worth it..haha
Then today is interclass soccer, well the girls tried their best haha..and we boys tried our best too and we managed to draw like 0-0 with the other two teams, I almost scored but it went slightly high and also I almost made the girl in the opposition team score and own goal lol…good chances haha..
Then after physics lecture, a girl asked nelson and I a funny question. She asked if we were angry with the girls for not playing during the match. Haha..why should we be angry lol..anyway they did try their best haha..we can see that lol..and it is just some fun game lah..just anyhow play…nothing serious what…next week we will have interclass again..hope it will be as fun lol…..haha..i also heard that my friend in Frankenberg gave me something. His mum made me jam…!!! J I cant wait to taste it..oh man I miss germany so so much, the fresh fruits in the summer in David’s garden, David and Markus and the rest haha…

lol

haha..a lot of people say i am lovesick but i seriously am not, just miss people who had left my life...i bet everyone will have that feeling when ur friend is going away or when ur friend si gonna leave you forever and there is no way of contacting him or her =(

ok erm i have an extra ticket to:

Dunman High Chinese Society Concert Rhapsody of Spring which will take place on 18th of May, a friday at 7.30 pm at Victoria Theatre.

will someone please go with me?? haha please?? cos i have accidentally bought an extra ticket due to miscommunication between me and my sister so yup please..it costs only $12, haha please message me if you wanna go with me thanks...yup please read the advertisement carefully

haha ok i am currently in the library blogging and searching for articles for GP presentation well...i got two but they had disappeared..*sigh
haha the CIP on saturday at Sentosa is kinda fun..well but boring..fun cos i can meet new friends but boring because i did nothing..well not much anyway and i went to VIVO City haha the top floor there enjoy the sea breeze lol..quite cool, can go there more often cos can smell the fresh air and relax with friends, maybe can have class outing there lol

haha..i met belinda on the bus last week while on my way home from third lang..she reckons i should train more haha..cos i told her about my training schedules and she says i am slacking lol..well maybe i should be more hardworking like her..who is in NJ canoe lol...

ok that was quite random and i went to xt's blog to tag and saw the video on U-tube..very funny and ANGSTY..haha

can someone tell me where got personality test or where u can find psychology test that will tell you what you are thinking of haha i feel like taking it to find out more about myself haha and for a deep analysis

I am deeply sorry to learn of the shooting in Virginia and thankfully, my friend who is in Virginia is not in that school..i suddenly feel that life is so precious, just a single incident could take away so many innocent lives and they are bright students with a great future ahead =(

ok so cherish life..i saw this message on a show called The Hospital which recently ended on Channel U..the last message was:
Life is but a sham, whatever we think is important now may not be that important anymore in the future. Do not aim to work hard to obtain a position but aim to work hard because you believe in what you are doing.

I want to be a doctor to heal people not because i want to earn money, because i love to see the patient's smile when i relieve them of their pain. that is the true spirit and it is teh same for whatever profession you are in. cherish what you have, bring a smile to people around you and then your life will be meaningful.

If you have no desire, you will yearn for nothing and you will feel happy. If you rid yourself of desire and follow your heart and align your heart to be on the right path, then you will feel happy.

i just told jonny he is distracted but i know he isnt and i wont be distracted too.. my life will go on..i will not miss her anymore..because i know what has gone between us has ended...and i must move on and so must she..she will find her happiness and i will have to cherish those around me..and find my own happiness

mood: cheerful and happy

Just an afternoon

haha..today is the SYF of the chinese dance of my juniors..well..hope they do well..all the best!!=)
i had training with jonny today and yup, now my hands are aching from the pull-ups i had done..ToT
haha..but jonny and i had fun because we shared some private joke that i later told xiaoting..well she reckoned we were feeling evil haha..
haha..joanna came visiting today, the school drop-out lol, and she crashed lecture wearing home clothes..then mingwei talked about ben and jerry's free ice cream and some of our classmates went promptly after school to try..but i have training..anyway i dont feel like going
i think i am not focused enough...must start studying and yup PW grades are such a bother..i dislike my grades..i felt that i had worked ahrd and so did everyone else in our class..everyone in our class should get an A, those who deserved it..=(
*sigh it has been quite some time since you wrote to me..i wonder how you are coping there and i hope you are well. Whenever i am feeling low, i thought of you, and i will try to cheer up =)
on monday, me and jonny was singing a childhood song :
i love you, you love me, we are happy family
doesnt that sound familiar..lol..ok that is random..

to someone i had known previously my last words to you:

wrote you many many messages
but you didnt reply
it just shows that i ain't in your mind
so why should i still bother to try

love you many many times
but you left my life
so suddenly that i couldnt even sigh
when you just kiss me goodbye

All my love i give you willingly
my heart is only yours soley
i will love you so much truly
but why do i feel that i am silly

my love for you is one-way traffic
why should i become love-sick
why should i fall for your trick
it's because your smile is so sweet

tell you many many nights
how much i love you so
but you never ever had respond
just like a stone into the sea was thrown

ask you many many whys
although you never ever lie
the love i gave is so much
all i crave is to have your touch

i dont need to have you by my side
i just want you to reside
in my heart so that it wont be empty
and i wont feel so lonely

i tried studying h3 chem last night and i managed to study a bit about antibacterials

• cycloserine: affects cell wall construction
• chloramphenicol: affects protein synthesis
• penicillin: affects cell wall construction
• tetracyclines: affects protein synthesis
• streptomycins: affects protein synthesis
• colistin (polymyxins): affects permeability of cell membrane
• cephalosporins: affects cell wall construction
• quinolones( nalidixic acid): affects nucleic acid transcription
• sulphonamides: affects synthesis of folic acid

oh no and there are two more compounds i have forgotten...i will fill in the next post =(

how am i gonna be a doctor like that if i can't even memorise a few antibacterial agents...*sigh

it just shows that i must work harder and harder...and not be slack...i must jiayou and be hardworking

Mood: discontented now because of PW and my inability to concentrate..must go study

outing for 6R

we had an outing on friday, the good friday at marina bay for joanna's farewell
It was superb albeit the weather was a bit hot. Haha I was sleeping like mad when xt called me >_<..my precious nap..but luckily she called, cos I was boiling water and if she didn’t call maybe I will just let the water in the kettle dry up. ToT haha at marina bay we flied kites..poor me..i can’t fly kites for nuts..not that I no skills..but the kite just refuse to stay afloat. Urghhh..then we palyed I never and I lost again cos I usually do a lot of stuffs before..and then my punishment was to say what I had done to chase a girl before and that must be the most cheesy..lol..and I told frankly haha..and I let out a secret that I like someone from somewhere haha..an exciting secret maybe for you to explore lol
Then I find that alex is worst than me..he ran and ran but then the kite is even more stubborn haha…lousy anyway xiaoting reckon that I stupid and suck because I had finished my tutorials but I refuse to believe so…I think I am hardworking and should keep it up…=)
Steamboat was good..but lousy jonny..bluff me that the jug actually contain beer..but it is green tea…haha..i didn’t want to drink beer or alcohol anymore..lol..and I went to buy my self what else but a green tea..*sigh
Oh right man…yesterday I went shopping for books but then I passed this store and thought hey..i think I should buy a present for my co-ogl..since I am so kind these few days..lol..so I bought her something and then she will never be able to say I bully her again..
My cousin is here in Singapore with some irritating woman..whom I do not like but well..maybe her profession as a salesperson require her to be like that so I think I shall accept people for whom they are and not be so petty..
I love my friends around me, they are so nice and friendly and although I do not like some people around me too but I will always be kind because I have learnt that we must forget our hatred and share the love..ok no particular mention here haha so don’t guess wildly…
Oh and to my dear..i will always love you no matter what and love you forever even you maybe so far away =)
My mood now: cheerful and contented

*sigh i think i am down on my social life, hating too many people and being hated by too many people. i am just a emotional bugger.
i hope that this week will be a better one foe me
and to all friends who had been supporting me, thanks a lot and goood luck

moody

i feel very sad these few days..i dunno why but i am just feeling depressed. i just felt pain in my heart and every part of my body is aching, including my heart.
ok for those who are going to say that i am just feeling out of love, this post will disappoint you.
i just feel severely depressed after the common tests..knowing that i will do badly for everything. maths was disastrous and even though physics was supposed to be easy and doeable, i still did badly! *sigh and the only thing i mug for, chemistry, oh well, not talking about it is the best thing to do. i hate it, i had put in so much effort to study chem and in the end, it ended up some bad....urghhh!!!! and i have a h3 chem test on friday too =( when will i ever escape from this mediocrity...
yeah..and i also need to help my friends get the RJ dance night ticket...*sigh it seem like an impossible task..seeing that almost all my friends their tickets are all sold out and well..just pray that one or two will come along in my way.
i dont know why..i just feel like leaving this place..to go somewhere to find my love, to go somewhere to explore and walk freely, freely from woes and to pursue my ideal..
i just feel that i am further and further away from my dream of being a doctor..in the sense that i think my grades are not going to let me study but i promise i will work hard..it is my goal to help the sick and try to do my best in relieving them of their illness and ensure that their health is my top most priority. but i am feeling stressed now..do you think i should take a break..?
to my dear.. i know you do not know about this blog and will never come here..but will you support me through even though you may be far away and i cannot see you?? will you give me your heart and take mine with you..so that our soul can be complete.
i just feel so empty in my heart, maybe i just need to find work to do, drown myself in tiredness
ok
bye bye

Outing, Post chinese New year and post valentine

Yesterday night i went for a movie with the FX people. haha..we watched Paris Je t'aime which is a film that is made up of many short films each lasting 5 minutes.. sound confusing?? well go watch it, i seriously recommend that...even if i dont know any french, i understood perfectly with the presence of english and chinese subtitles. I love the one on a poor nigerian guy, it was very sad..and i admired his passion for love. some films like the one on Vampire and Chinese doesnt make much sense though. haha..yeah and before that i went out with my parents to their friends' house to have lunch before going Novena to study with alex and xiaoting and have dinner there. haha..i dunno why..after watching the film, i suddenly feel that love is everywhere, not necessary must be in Paris and yup although i agree that walking along the River Seine is more romantic than walking along Singapore river. But *sigh..i could not see the person that i very much want to see again in the near future..wo bist du jetzt??
Brings me to post valentine day..well haha..basically i got invited to watch Paris Je t'aime with the FX people for first grand screening at Alliance Francaise..but i did not go..haha..maybe i should have gone lol..but me and andreas just took the train home and yeah try not to look at the couples around us..kinda lonely..and yeah haha..makes you feel funny when you saw people around you or even your friends that you have not seen for many years haha lol..anyway..ok should not be angsty about that cos should not focus so much on finding a valentine, seeing that it is kinda hard to..so well GIVE UP!!
Prefers chinese new year. 6R goes Weilin's house to celebrate on second day of chinese new year. oh man.. it totally rocks ^^. we played pool and DDR..some of us tried halo but i didnt haha..then we watched Alfie and Borat >< a very funny film that is a bit crude but well..censored ..so yeah anyway and we ate chocolates and i seriously need to try to get myself fatter as i binge on the food...then we talked as we eat dinner...yup this new year i collected some ang paos..well since my relatives are overseas..this is not bad haha..and i have money so that i can go out..YEA!!=)
but maybe alone???haha...now more things are gonna happen..so i must continue to stay focused and study hard...all the guys..together we can do it.. Nothing is Impossible
Love you , love you, yes i love you tell me what to do
so that i can love you, you will love me and we are happy
everyone should be happy and cheerful like me ok??

sign off: a person who is happy and contented now with the good friends around him

On'y va pour la victoire
Degada Volontana
Zeit dass sich was dreht, was dreht
bis zum Leben ole ole..